There comes a point when you realize you can’t keep living the way you have been. That moment happens when the weight of a soul-destroying job, an ill-fitted relationship, and years of self-neglecting decisions catch up to you. Suddenly, it becomes hard to take even one more step forward. I recently had that moment.
Reaching Rock Bottom
Two months ago, my life felt completely different. I was in a long-term job and a long-term relationship that didn’t suit me. They were actively holding me back.
Despite months of job searching, applying, and interviewing, no offer had come. My self-esteem was taking a hit, but I continued to fight on. Meanwhile, I was trying desperately to cling to my relationship, but it was becoming painfully clear that we had no future and shouldn’t be together anymore.
I became more and more depressed. Mentally and emotionally, I was a mess. When I looked in the mirror, I barely recognized myself. I had gained weight physically, mentally, and emotionally. One weekend, I could barely get out of bed to clean my house, and I’ve always loved cleaning!
The Decision
Things got worse at work, and my anxiety about losing my job grew. I knew I had to get out of the mess I had created. My stability was on the line, and I promised myself: I would do whatever it took to get out of this job, let go of the things holding me back, and reclaim my life.
Then, the next job interview came at just the right time. Instead of feeling unconfident and shy, I was determined. I wanted this job, NEEDED this job. I put my best foot forward, and, to my joy, the offer came through. I was over the moon. I promptly quit my old job and took two weeks off for my mental health. Now, I’m in a new job, and I couldn’t be happier.
With my career situation sorted, I had more energy to focus on my relationship. It became clear there were just too many incompatibilities between us, and after ignoring my gut for so long, trying to make it work, I finally had to face the truth. This relationship wasn’t healthy for me, and it needed to end. So, as gut-wrenching as it was, I ended it.
The Beginnings of Change
Wow. So much can change with just two life decisions, made in moments of faith and courage. We are always just a decision away from a completely different life. Isn’t that wonderous?
In the aftermath, things felt a bit rough; a new job, a new industry, and new faces. Thankfully, my new job has been wonderfully supportive. As for the breakup, I was upset for a while, but I think I had already done most of the grieving months before pulling the plug. I knew it was time to move forward.
Without the weight of those major issues holding me back, I suddenly had so much more time and energy. It was time to focus on myself.
Why I Am Starting This Blog
One of my dreams has always been to start a blog. Since I was a teenager, I’ve loved delving into personal development content. I’ve consumed books, YouTube videos, podcasts, and blogs on self-improvement. I’ve always been drawn to writing, too, and have wanted to hone this skill and to learn to express myself better.
For years, I’ve considered documenting the lessons I’ve learned in life. I believe that each of us has a unique perspective worth sharing and that all our voices deserve to be heard. I’ve been through many life experiences and have grown through so much. I’ve felt a calling to share what I’ve learned.
The old me was filled with self-doubt and second-guessing. The old me didn’t believe she could pursue and achieve her dreams. But recently, I’ve had some big realizations. No one is coming to save me. No one will make my dreams a reality if I don’t. One day, if I’m lucky, I will be old and gray, and I don’t want to look back with regrets, wondering what would have happened if I only dared to believe in myself. My life is 100% up to me, and the only thing holding me back is me. And I’m tired of getting in my way.
So, I decided to start this blog, a dream I’ve had for years. I even bought a domain name a few years ago, but guess what? I never posted anything. But this time, it’s different. I’m fully committed to myself.
Four Reasons Why I Want to Start This Blog
To Share My Passion for Personal Development
I’ve always been intuitively passionate about self-reflection and growth. Over the years, I’ve learned so much, and I want to cement those lessons, remember them, and share them with others. I hope what I’ve learned can help someone else on their journey.
To Connect with Like-minded People
I’ve realized that I need growth-oriented people in my life. I love deep, honest conversations about life. I want to learn from others and be part of a community that encourages one another.
To Create Something Valuable
One day, I won’t be here anymore. But I’d like to leave behind something meaningful, a contribution to the world that could help even just one other person.
To Express Myself
I’ve always been quiet and introverted, but that doesn’t mean I don’t desire to express myself. It has taken me time to shed the layers of untruths I’ve carried, but now, I want to share the real me.
What Content Can You Expect to See
I have a wide range of interests, and you’ll see that reflected in the content here. Expect to find posts on:
- Personal Growth and Self-Mastery
- Deep Reflections and Life Wisdom
- Financial and Career Growth
- Creativity, Beauty, and Nature
- Intentional Living & Lifestyle Design
- Execution and Mindset Shifts
My Hopes for This Blog
I want this blog to be a space that inspires you, a place filled with ideas and actionable tips to help you create the life you truly want. One of the biggest tragedies in life, to me, is when people don’t live up to their true potential. I believe we all can have so much in life if we’re honest with ourselves, reflect, and take steps to improve to get what we want in life. To me, life is about balancing gratitude for what we have while always working to evolve.
A Final Thought
I truly believe that we all have the potential to create and design a life we love, and we all deserve that. I’m committed to following my dreams and sharing my lessons. I hope that in doing so, I can help others on their journey, just as others have helped me.
I hope you’ll join me.